Guilty Pleasure

i was chatting with abbey just now and she asked me to open a blog acc.
it's my friend's.

HER BLOG :')

gosh...
that post made me speechless.
i was really blessed.
soo inspiring. :')

sekarang aku mengerti.
rupanya kami sudah keterlaluan.

well, sebenarnya aku tahu aku sudah keterlaluan.
apa yang kita rasain sama.
i knew that it was wrong, but i just couldn't stop it.
seakan-akan kita cuma mikirin kepentingan kita sendiri, tanpa mempertimbangkan gimana perasaannya dia.

aku memang hanya tertawa.
merasa kalau apa yang mereka katakan itu lucu.
tapi aku ga menyangka kalau...
she told our teacher that she wanna kill herself.
you know, that's not funny anymore.
that's SCARY.

the word "BULLYING" is so scary.
that reminds me to those bad memories and nightmares before she leaved.

aku ga tahu bagaimana awalnya bisa terjadi, tapi aku tahu sejak kapan pristiwa itu berlangsung.
sejak kelas 7.
lebih dari setahun yang lalu.

they talked about her unbranded shoes till her brother.
they always have a new topic about her every single day.
and the worst thing is...
i thought that they were CREATIVE.
and...
i LAUGH.

and everything's getting worse.
aku ga hanya tertawa, tapi setelah dia pergi, aku mulai melakukan hal-hal yang mirip dengan yang dulu juga mereka lakukan.
menjijikkan. -_-

puncaknya mungkin kemarin.
saat mereka ke mall untuk ngebully dia.
and guess what?
saya HAMPIR saja ikut.
untungnya ga jadi.
i thank God for that.

and i believe, that inspired her to write that post.
many thanks for you, cause that inspired me.
really.

seriously, this is not funny guys...
i'm wondering if now i'm in her position.
maybe i can do worse things than "kill-myself".

she's right, money isn't everything.
it doesn't stay forever, but bestfriend does.

i think, it's now over for me.
i have to stop before it's really too late, although actually it's too late now.
she's gone.

that's why...
maybe you're not reading my post, but...
i just wanna say sorry.

sorry...
sorry, karena kata sorry tentu saja ga cukup untung menggambarkan semuanya.
sorry...

i want us to change.
let's change together, and be a better person.

let's turn the situation now.
better too late than never at all.
seriously.

be blessed.

p.s: thanks, your post is life-changing. :')